The music I used to listen when I was teenage that was Jazz always ,today I got shock to hear about news of Freddie Hubbard past away, I loved Blue Note mostly John Coltrane and Miles Davis everyday my life was with Jazz music. I couldn't stop the sounds all the time around me. Miles Davis's sound was so cool, and John Coltrane with McCoy Tyner ,I loved his piano,and Bill Evans with Chet Baker , Ron Carter his bass I loved it, Herbie Hancock's piano,Art Blaky's drams,Montgomery's guitar sounds, so much memories of my teenage .

Once I went to Miles Davis's concert in Japan it was so amazing I couldn't believe that to be his live concert then it became at last live in Japan for his life that was also shocked.

That is old time for me I thought so now but to hear about great Jazz musician's news is remind my memories with plenty of Jazz sounds and melodies, age which I spent time with it.

Winter night

When we got off the car at night we saw stars were so beautiful in the sky ,my daughter was just stand and we looked up the night sky ,in while I saw star fall I just make a wish happiness for my sons and my daughter. I thanks for life and time I spend with my daughter watching stars we feel beautiful.

She said "very cold !we have to get in home ".

At Christmas my sons will come to home and New year too, they are busy for work till end of the year.

Sunset on Ngong hill

I remember about sunset in Nairobi when I saw it now, We used see every evening beautiful sunset was over the Ngong Hill ,my kids were still small , we were enjoy to see beautiful sunset and plenty of stars in the sky at night.

In Kenya the place where we lived called "Karen " name was from Karen Buruxen author of book " Out of Africa" it is also famous as movie , we lived near the " Karen Buruxen Museum".I was visited that garden on sunday with my kids ,Museum's garden was very beautiful and sometimes we could meet some Japaneaese turists there.

And in 1984 there was making movie of " Out Of Africa " in Nairobi ,that time my son was not yet born means I was not mother yet, some of our friends played that movie as extra.I didn't realized yet what kind of movie they were going to play .

Later when we came back to Japan with my first baby in 1985 December at Christmas , we went watch that movie at theater we surprised there are Robert Redford role playing, I didn't know that but my husband said "this is that movie we played as extra in Nairobi", then we found there were some of our friends Alonso and Vinsent just one second and my husband too in just one second we could see them on the screen.

That is really precious memory with friends of our young age, they were Rwandese and they were really good friends ,one of our friend Alonso is living Cicago now sometimes telephoned me few years ago and I could talked Marsia who was my neighbour for few month in Burundi a mother of my husband's school friend ,when I met her she wanted flee from bad situation in Burundi there was already problem of interahamue threatened her tribe it was 1991,she is also Rwandese in Burundi who were exiled for more than twenty years same as other Rwandese.Now she is living Cicago, she said me on phone "there is no scare any more but missing my country."

Now some of Rwandese were repatriated but some were doesn't go back to their country because of sad history of their country. One of our friend Vincent who married French lady he and his wife were also very good friends of us now he lives in France and he called his two younger sisters to France , he has five children same age as my sons and daughter. And one of our friend Bosco is living in Kigali Rwanda with other friends .

Two of our Rwandese friends they came to visit us one day in Japan about ten years ago, last time in Nairobi when they saw my kids were still young around 5 , 4, and 2 it was last we met and it was before the war in Rwanda,then about 8 years later they came to learn about volunteer work in Japan and they met my kids were grown up to teenager they were so glad to see my children so much .Then they returned to Rwanda to try to build up their country from damage of their country's sad hitory.

I thought they are so brave that to looking future of their country, it is not easy to wipe out deep grief from mind.

We had very good time when we were young our memory in Nairobi there was peace and dreams that time was nobody imagine such a terrible things happen to in their country Rwanda, after that we lived each way, different country and living very far but our memory is still as young we were , and friends as soul still now . They are people who I've met how kindly, simple and very honesty I can say goodness people they are in my life.

But it is memory now.. sometimes I remember it, the time when we were young which we spend time together we had dreams as young we were.

Breathing shining from star in evening

This season evening is coming earlier and then sunset is sometimes making very colorful view for us ,east and west .I was surprised to see white color mountains were changing color in pink in east side and it's changing to color purple then becoming to dark ,west side we can see orange, light blue and dark blue ,then we looked find first star in the dark sky ,it was so shinning in the sky .My daughter said very beautiful ! When I'm off day I like to see sunset phenomenon,it is all the time show us different beauty , at last we say always " so beautiful! ! ! " and then " let's go home ".

If my off day is not cloudy or not rainy day we are lucky to find beautiful sunset ,and then we feel happy what we could see phenomenon in the sky, it's just beautiful and shining star in evening is make refresh our heart or give us natural power ? with breathing beauty ?,I feel so...

Shining triangle with stars and crescent moon

This evening my daughter asked me to go to supermarket and then when we are driving we saw shining Venus and Jupiter with crescent moon in the sky, it was very beautiful ! we surprised .

I just imagine bible and when Jesus was born they saw same as like this ? I felt something lucky or things will happening good luck. And it was really rare chance for me because at that time usually I 'm still working but I left work earlier today and if my daughter didn't ask to me to go out in evening, we saw shining stars and crescent moon makes triangle . Later I took camera to take photos but it was too late , moon changed color orange and moved so down.

But really I felt today was lucky day that we could see in the sky so beautiful shining stars and crescent moon . Once in life ? might be so .... that's why it was very lucky , and I was glad that I could see it with my daughter,looked up the sky and then we said " So beautiful ! " .It was very mysterious.

Colorful umbrellas

In the afternoon when I driving way to go home I like to see children are walking with umbrellas ,the scene I see rainy afternoon kids are walking very slowly with their friends after school way to go home .

I just see colorful umbrellas are moving , yellow, sky blue, pink or red,they are not in hurry to go home even they enjoy walking with friends and their umbrellas and rain boots, it's makes me smile some boys are playing with umbrellas .

It is one of peaceful scene but just ordinary scene in rainy afternoon .

Winter season is coming soon ,decoration with Christmas ornaments everywhere are makes us warm feelings,that's why people are thinking about family in this season?and we also feeling happiness to think about new year will brings good year again to us.

The country

" I pray too." a girl who was play on TV drama she said " I pray for some one's happiness "

I thought so " I pray too, for some one's happiness."

I used to pray for my family since they were born ,and I hoped to that they can live in peace and with security . They have human right to live in peace since they were born of course.

I hope peace , I pray too.

One day when I enter to book shop I felt so clean , it was same as always ,just I used see same place but it was after I read about news of DRC crisis,I went out with my daughter as usually.

I realized that we live with cleanness.

Many years later

This name " Ituri " when I was about 18 years old I read one book written by a Japanese cultural anthropologist,at that time the place was called " The mysterious Forest Ituri " ,I liked read that , people were lived with nature in deep forest and peaceful inside Africa .

Few years ago when I read African news about DR Congo conflict when I found this name " Ituri " was very shocked and felt so much pain,now 30 years later since first time I knew this name " Ituri " . There are people fleeing villages from battle now that is so horrible ,I couldn't believe that .

If we read that book which was written 30 years ago there is written about their life peacefully ,about their small society and about their culture .

Always innocent people are going to displace , if people are left their place to run from fear how they are going to get foods in forest ? no place to sleep ? how can they survive ? that is very difficult and that is fact,very sad.

Modern times

Last week I found one book " Before The Dawn " ~ Recovering the lost history of our ancestors ~ by Nicholas Wade , it was very interesting ,how we have been reach to now ?

that is very mystery I thought so .People like to create or challenge to things seem to be impossible but now human's technology are reach to Mars ? That is so amazing if we read about how we were in fifty thousand years ago . Is it same species ? Chimpanzee is still in the forest monkey is still monkey why only human could be revolution living with high technology , maybe we like to make products it was began by one stone , now we drive car, medical care and we use computer these net works makes on line to people that spread to the world in ancient time .

If I see human's history I feel our life is very short , sometimes I see my sons and daughter's pictures when they were still small 5,7, or 8 years old, memory is like treasure for me and I thanks that they could grow up healthy and I think I 'll see also their life how they are gonna live their life themselves that is one of my joy I think so ..and I always think one thing is just normal life that they live is just enough , working , enjoy with friends spend daily like that for them is very enough life already ,I thanks so much for that.

Scene

I went one day trip to near Mt. Fuji with my daughter, it was very nice short trip for us .

It was bus tour 5 hours one way was very fun ,looking around new scene we never been there new town new place we enjoined time. We visited jewelry factory ,I never know such a kind of factory how people are working ,very sensitive and excellent works .And then we visited wine factory also we felt history so much and it is very professional works. At last we visited cheese factory full of milky flavors were so sweet.

we could have very good time and it was invitation tour by lottery, we were lucky because if we didn't have this chance maybe we never been there , it was really precious gift for us.

I thought after that I feel relax it is good to change even one day in daily life, I still remember mind I felt beautiful and sweet milky flavors at cheese factory .

In the morning

In this morning I hear the sounds of rain and hear the sounds of wind bell ,I feel peace morning again. I like this sounds of rain , yes when it's sunny day I hear the birds singing and I wake , it's really peaceful , I thanks to live in peace ,and will be tomorrow again I know it..,most I thanks to feel is that my sons and daughter are waking in peace silent morning , living in the peace in daily and this is normal life how we live....and I know will be tomorrow again and next day too.

One tissue box

After work I went to supermarket I found one tissue box which is printing children's picture I bought it.

It is supporting UNICEF in East Timor ,it is called One Thousand Toilet Project in East Timor.

I though if these kind of products could be more around us will be more wonderful, these days we can see UNICEF box on the counter in convenience store may be I see it every day , or sometimes we see same UNICEF box on the counter in family restaurant when I see it that will bring something good I feel so, because box is always full of coins that's I found.

Even I read some news of children's problem in the world ,and feel pain but what can I do ? that questions is always asking to myself ,yes when I returned from Africa I tried to do fund rising for UNICEF with my children and also I tried photo panels exhibition because I wanted people to know about situation of children's problem that panel was free rent from UNICEF .I thought people in Japan who lives in development country are difficult to understand or difficult to image some children are suffering in the world.

One of my friend she called me telephone from Japan when I was in Burundi with my children, I was so glad her telephone when I returned Japan I talked her about war in Burundi but she exactly said difficult to understand that situation in reality is true of course she was worry about us that's why she telephoned me but really she explained me there are many kind of news are on air on TV, crisis is just looks like happened over the screen , there is no reality in daily life it's mean people are not find relation with problem in the world that's she told me .Because in daily life people are busy for work or busy for care of their own children news in evening on TV ,and then next day is same again, how to realize to people there is serious problem of children in the world , we can do something to find solution, need more information to people because problem is too huge.

When they can get fair human right ? But if I spend my food about milk , bread , margarine , juice or something else 10 dollar will finish in once, if that 10 dollar could help children in crisis will be more meaning of 10 dollar , I used asked fund rising for UNICEF once in a year when my children were still in primary school I did with them and their little friends. Now almost ten years I didn't do the fund rising ,

may be I should try something ,now my children are grown up I wish if I can find something I thought so today, may be I can try photo panel exhibition again to information for people ? or I don't know yet...

Little red leaves

It was cloudy and rainy day today,and I found leaves are start to change color in red little by little autumn season has coming around. I went to have a lunch outside with my daughter then I felt really happy to spend time with her then I thought how I was as her age I was living far from my mother ,busy for working or busy for traveling, sometimes I was regret if I could spend more time with my mother but also I believe she lived her life as well as herself in her home town, she spent all her life place where she was born , and of course we used visit her and she was happy to see her grand children's grow up till they became taller than their grandmother.

And now my sons are living themselves still young but I'm glad to see that they will learn to living life,my daughter is side by me always that also giving me to more time of enjoy in my daily life.

The family is really treasure in whole life I feel so. It is not matter how much we spend time together because my sons are busy to be with their friends that's more better things, like I could meet many people because I liked to travel ,to looking outside will be good to learn many things from people I think so.

Today I felt thanks to my daughter to see her face over the table when we had lunch her smile was so cute,we found tree leaves are changing color red little bit over the window in rain,and we found autumn is coming,to have a good time with her, life is miracle sometimes I feel .

What's new ?

Yesterday I found one book at book store, it was " The Dragons of Eden " by Carl Sagan published in 1977.I surprised it is very old and I really thought if he is still alive now we could read more interesting book now because what he wrote was 30years ago science has changed and technology has changed too during this 30 years, but his book is very interesting still now even it's has been 30 years.

I was remind about 30 years ago how I was , when I was around 18 end of my high school age I remember about " Cosmos" , it was on air on TV and I liked to watch it very much because that " Cosmos " TV series gave me chance to think about our origin and the universe first time in my life ,then I ran to book store to looked for the book " Cosmos " I liked it very much.

Few days ago we were talking about Winter Olympic in Nagano, it was just about 10 years ago and that time my children were 10 , 12 and 13 years old we went watch Nagano Olympic ,for me that memory is not much old, but when I thought Winter Olympic in Sapporo I was like my son's age I was 12 that memory was sepia color already when I grown up around 20.

I read the book " The Dragons of Eden " end of this book he is writing about 3 dimensional design of architect with computer this chapter is " The Future Evolution of the Brain " now people are living in the his future of 30years ago , my son also he has learn architect design with 3 dimensional design with computer at his school and it's just normal things for him.

Things has changed I was wonder about my son's generation mean new young generations are perhaps they have new eyes more than us,because just 10 years ago is already old things for them.

That's why I really wished if I can read Carl Sagan's book if he is still alive now ,it could be wonderful for us.That's I thought when I found this book .

Busy for fun

My sons have been to Reggae Festival in Yokohama with their friends last weekend , they enjoyed their short summer holiday driving long way to there also it's fun for them.

I'm happy to hear so that ,they always say summer is busy to enjoy with friends and they say they work for that ,yes young as young they have good time ,now they return to daily life .

I liked to travel to east Africa when I was young same age as my children, since 19 years old till 30 years old most of time I spent time in Nairobi in Kenya and my children also they spent time 5years in Nairobi.

They started speak three languages Swahili language with Kenyan people and English with European friends and Japanese language with me it was when they were 2 years old and first son was 3 years old.

They learn to speak different language from our neighbors,and their little friends also they used speak three languages when they are play they speak Swahili or English outside and with their family they spoke their mother tun Ethiopian , Indian , Somalian ,or Kenyan their own tribe languages.So for my children were just normal thing to speak different languages depend on parson who talk with.

One day one of my British friend asked me how I teach them ? But I said it's not me they learn from their friends when they play and they used see people are speaking different language even Kenyan people they have their own tribe languages and speak Swahili too.But only one thing I was wonder how they realize

when person are speaking English they answered in English and person when they speak to my children Swahili they answered in Swahili ? That's my friend was asked me question because they were still so smallmy second son was only 2 years old and first son was only 3 years old.They liked to talk with people so much, and when they play the used to speak in English between brothers. Since that time we lived 5 years in Nairobi after we returned to Japan they learn to speak Japanese very quick they surprised me.But most things they learn through communication with people was culture, they learn to respect elder parson , kindness,honest, and care to younger theses they learn when they were small it is very important and they have these mind still now.

One day we were watching evening news there was fire works Festival in Paris it was beautiful I thought so that spent money was three hundred millions yen when my son heard so what he said to me " how can spend money like that better buy foods for children of crisis " he was 11years old. He was sometimes explain to me Japan is very peace because he knows there are many children are in crisis in the world

and we have seen tank front of our house in Burundi when they were 5 years old.

My sons and daughter are life with freedom that is normal life , I wish all other children in the world their life also to be so.

August again

Many things have gone a far away by time usually because we are living forward by time.

August is come again this year too,15th August is Day of The End of World War Two in this country Japan there is ceremony of mourning for who lost their life 63 years ago, and we had repeating this Day of National Ceremony every year still now and we'll repeat to pray forever for protect nation's peace and also for wishing peace in the world.

When every August has come we remind our country's sad history what happened 63years ago, and who works for media or who works TV programs or who works for movies or writer they try to explain about World War Two to telling to next generation to not repeat the war again.Even there is animation movie for children how people were lost their life in Hiroshima World War Two, this story is very sad story to see, that's why people are try to explain for children or young generations what was wrong and it was fact in this country's history. And also on TV program is making short movies of World War Two in Japan, how it was sad for family who survived and also what was wrong led to that terrible history. At that time it was old Japanese government was controlled nation through the school education,now all nation knows that such things was very wrong history had happened in our country's history .Everyone are accept what was wrong so we shouldn't repeat it again for protect our children's peace and for their future and we know that.

Now we are living in peace this 63years so people are trying to protect this peace,when every August has come we are realize it through media most on TV they always repeating " we have to tell to next generation what happened 63years ago and it was wrong history and many people lost their life was sad history in our country ." People are try to remind that sad history in August every year because time might take it far away , but it shouldn't forget and we have to tell children how peace is important . This is August in my country , and it's every year we'll see on TV to understand this country's wrong history .When I watch the TV I really realize people are very serious to protect the peace for children.

In daily life peace is as usually but there are many people try to work in many kind of occupations through their work to protect this peace for children , for their smile and for children's future..

When we look the future sometimes we need to look at past and need to learn from the past.

World is small

These days we are easy to travel to other country in some hours later we can be foot down on the where we want be for sightseeing or for business anything else .I thought when I was travel " world is very small,not much big" because if we take airplane it's easy to reach to another country after 5 hours and then within another 10 hours we can reach to another country again,to meeting other cultures or learning their languages.

I had learn Swahili language when I was 18 years old for travel to east Africa ,professor was told us to learning languages is same as learning their cultures to respect their cultures, and also to understand another culture will be way to more understanding human been, and it was true I could met really wonderful people , I could learn many things from people who I could meet in east Africa, kindness ,to help each other. The professor was anthropologist , he was in Tanzania in 1960 when he shown us his 8mm films we surprised it was before I born he was already in Tanzania to researching Swahili culture.

When Beijing Olympic was opening ceremony I was watching it on TVwith my daughter and then we saw a beautiful pigeon on screen and we wished peace in the world I think everyone thought so. Next day there was game then I read news paper to see the picture of a medalist of my country and that behind that page what we saw was a picture of people screaming under the battle,how? It is so sad and really unfair .Because I was watching Olympic game with my daughter and we exited to cheering Judo contest till he got gold medal it was after that when I read news paper ,I couldn't believe it.It 's so terrible I didn't feel to watch the Olympic games on TV in my living room. What is border ? They are just their neighbor

country ,how ? I can not understand such unfair human right.Can not stop the war? The world can not be peace it's almost impossible to solve the problem of global warming, for what ?because if impossible to build the peace over the world I think nothing we can solve more than that.If we can not protect human right how we can protect to other species it's impossible.Human can not give the fair human right for children how to solve other problem I don't understand .

In beginning of this August there was Peace Declaration in Hiroshima 63 years ,more than half century have past in history but human never learn or never change ? It's still repeating terrible history during 63years , when will be peace in the world.

Crossing the bridges

There are bridges for wildlife over the road, some years ago there was problem that road had constructed for human life divided forests ,it made wildlife's area had divided as same as by road everywhere so problem was bears or deers need more large area for their territory otherwise they will be reduce their group, they need to move more large space all over the country somehow, so by map in their area what was obstacle the road had made smaller area to live. then people built bridges over the road ,bears or deers or monkeys are crossing the bridges moving forests to forests .It had built only for them not human using that .

When I watched on TV that deers are crossing the bridge in forest over the road I thought it's so wonderful ! I wanted say it had built for you deers ! It was wonderful scene ,and I felt that plan was so kindness for them.

We don't know how wildlife live their life in mountain all over the country but some experts are finding their problem which has brought by human, if there is need to find solution they are always try to act for them and they gave us information what is better way to protect wildlife,in this daily life we live with technology and also we can not forget living with nature that our life is provided by nature .

So I like to looking up the mountain from city feel great and respect ...

Do we live with them ?

Two years ago in autumn we had unusual information it was on news " Bear had come down to village and old woman had seen it was run went that way, "" Please take care of bears " that news was every day , people were surprised ,because usually bear could have seen in village mean come down from mountain is just few times in autumn, but that autumn was special too much bear had came down to village , a one bear was come down to town and run through front of shopping center early in morning and then passed away high school ground there was students eyewitness . In that season bears had seen in village number was 200 , some were hurt farmers.

I used hear there is bear in the mountain and some students were coming down to school from near mountain they used bell on bag to make sounds for sign about here human is , but it was when I was child .

In that year's autumn why so many bears were come down to villages cause climate was couldn't be enough fruits in mountain so bears missed enough food , and also kind of plants were made line between human's life space and wildlife's space but it has changed by human' life style so should be need to realize these line how nature was before and why bears couldn't come down.

Then people were try to set the cage to catch bear in village near the mountain and which was caught had return to the mountain .

How I surprised that number of bears which had seen by villages people through one season is if 200 bears have appeared in villages should be more number of bears in the mountain. And I thought we never know such as number of bears are we live in symbiosis wildlife ? It's really people had try to keep the nature as just we love our environment that brought so many wildlife animals are living in the mountain in silent.

Also on the news they said we didn't know that many number of bears living in our region .

Then of course they attention that we should keep line between human's life space and wildlife's space for both how to live safe and we need protect wildlife's space for them that important.

Place where we live is just city , if we see so many cars on the road and in our daily life it is not easy to image such as number of wildlife animals are there in mountain, but when I hard those news I was glad to hear so.

About last year not much bear was appeared in villages because they got enough fruits in the nature same as usually .

There is one specie Japanese serow which is special natural monument are also living inside deep this mountain and ptarmigan which have been survived since glacier age lives on top of mountain also special natural monument they are almost like soul of mountain because for people it's not easy to meet them so that's why people like to protect nature for their life they are our treasure .

When I was small I have been told by my father about ptarmigan as mystery bird living on top of that mountain he pointed the mountain then I became used looking up top of the mountain which has snow white color through a year, and maybe I learn to respect the mountain that keeping wild life during long time where far from our life.

The fishermans in mountain

There is local news every evening they like to say same things , it is like this " Today's information of protect nature " and " There is programme for children to play with nature , for learn about nature through the experience with nature " then " We should try to keep theses nature for next generation".

These words are repeating every evening news . And if I see Information for citizen which is delivery every month for all citizen from governor also there is " Let's joint this plan for children Play with nature and learn about it ".

One day I told my son this province people like to say always about "How we have to protect our nature or telling to parents that experience with nature for children " and news caster is smiling and say that "We want to gift rich nature and environment for children! "sometimes I laugh myself , people are really like these words .

There is gulf which has plenty of fish and fisherman's history since long time ago and there is high mountain which has rich of nature it is provided our agriculture history by river down from mountain.

Some years ago fisher mans were start to work in mountain to planting trees or try to keep mountain`s ecosystem , because fisherman's life is related to environment of high mountain the river downs from mountain is going to sea. When they realized how to keep rich sea biology is important to keep mountain's rich environment, that is most important ecosystem to how people live . The fisherman's planning is still continue even now protect nature in mountain is bringing richer sea environment .

And it's also introducing on the evening news " The fisher mans are working in mountain for environment

today "and a fisherman answer to reporter " To protect environment of mountain is same as protect our sea environment "it is serious how they work and I respect for them.

Maybe people who works in this region who pay the tax to governor if it will be spend for nature no one

will complain for that I thought so.

Young as young

At first time when I ride on my second son's drive he was playing music so loud I was worry about his safety drive ,but I didn't say anything to him because he used to drive to go work every day so I was just trust and young generation is like that to try to say myself, of course I was worry as his mother about can he concentrate to drive ?Driving with listening music so loud. He was about 19 years old that time .

But this day I understand sometimes it's good refresh to brain drive with loud music, because in daily life we have to spend most of time for our work and it's everyday we repeat it in morning and next day too.

So for my sons one day off or two days off in a week is really important time for them to become as young to be them self.

Same as when I drive I play music loud these day,I feel my brain become refresh as well, and it's easy to control speed it's mean not much speed ,it's possible to drive safety . I realized how they like to drive ,for young generation it's not fun to work every day ,but they work because for their life management they need to be spend daily as worker.Even me if I think I have to go work tomorrow I feel better to get off from work and spend day with more fun , but life is not easy that we have to work every day.

So I spend my off day drive to near mountain where I was born then feel green and feel winds ,it' makes me refresh I like it.

Every summer my sons are going to Reggae Festival in Yokohama with their friends and they enjoy to drive long way to there. Looks they enjoy their life as young , I 'm happy to see that they enjoy life in off day and also they work in daily. That is life....

The nature as natural

There is a beautiful high mountain in my province and I grown up to used see this mountain everyday, which is most I love and people loves this mountain too. And this mountain is still keeping beautiful as same as long time ago because there are many people working to keep the nature and ecosystem of this mountain.

Of course there are so many tourists visiting to top of this mountain through every year, I really remember when I was about secondary school it's almost about 35years ago the governor of this province ban the car to enter to trip to top of this mountain because problem was found tourist's car gave damage to ancient plant on the mountain this plant species is rare and it's only on this mountain and survived since a glacier age,so people in this province really got heart break because we love this mountain but it was going to destroy by visitors, then governor immediately ban the private car to entry to this mountain , we called it " Ban my car " . This rule has kept nature of this mountain, there is only tour bus which organised by governor be able to entry this mountain and it's ruled how many in a day. In summer season is most tourists visiting this mountain and after season volunteer students are clean rubbish around visitor walked .

And few days ago I saw on news now there is problem of pollen from other place coming with visitor's shoes so they developed cleaning mat with high technologies to remove pollen ,I surprised how they work nature watchers are finding small change of nature and ecosystem of this mountain they try to find solve problem immediately and try to protect nature, that's why we can see always this beautiful mountain.

Maybe for other people it's looks really strictly, but for us should be strictly for visitors because this mountain is our proud and we used to hard how people loved this mountain and people respect this mountain in our history from grandmother and since more old time.

Now I think nature is natural but if there are human might be destroy that's how to protect nature as natural otherwise if there is not human's policy those ancient plant species which survived since glacier age it couldn't be survived until now , it's keeping by human work and many people be able see this beautiful mountain today.

Sounds of summer

A couple week ago I was feeling season with hearing chorus of frogs around my home, and today when I hard chorus of cicadas I felt memory of summer time where I spend time I was child, and then I realized summer has come. Today I went my home town with my daughter and we walked riverside and visited an old shrine hearing sound of river and chorus of cicadas were as same as sounds of summer time which I used hear ,and it's remind me how I spent school holiday when I was child and it was very hot as same as that summer , but winds came from river made us so cool , yeah the place was near to mountain and the river is down from high mountain which still has snow on the top this time. The view of mountain and hearing sound of river I can say most place I love, so I like to visit sometimes with my daughter and think about my memory of my parents and I feel thanks to my parents.

The place was cooler than city really I thought so, later I came back to town when I walked to shop at night I heard chorus of bell- ring crickets around my home it's also makes me feel summer has come.

This day we used talk about it's became so hot but which realized me season has changed was sounds of summer I used heard , and it is around me .

Simple life

When my daughter was clean up her desk I found one book which I bought for her when she was around 8years old ,it is book of Mother Telesa . That children's book is very small and explain about her life in short sentence with her photos. I respect how she spend her life with mercy and lot of love.I heard about when she went palace for Nobel Prize ,she was wear old sandals as usually .

And now I remember when I was child my mother was told me some story through old buddhist's story mercy and modesty,"one great buddhist who had Satori he was travel village to village but his wear was not looks like nobelist wear even looks like poor, so village people were never know that he is great buddhist ,so people denied to welcome to their home but who was understood buddhism and who had faith one parson asked buddhist to stay home to sleep in a house because outside was snowing. Who could be kind to this great buddhist was didn't care what's his wear , what he looks like, a farmer did just kind as person and mercy then buddhist was thanks to that farmer who gave him to stay side by fire to get warm. " This story was taught me what important is only inside heart which we should have kindness , mercy ,love , and honest , it is not important what we wear or how we live looks like rich. My mother was used read me many kind of story through buddhism when I was child around 5or 6 years old and I used saw my grand mother's faith too.

Maybe it's stay inside deep , sometimes I remind my family's memory of when I was child .

Like a glass

If we pray ,if we wish,if we trust hope everything gonna be alright life will be more easy for everyone, but sometimes there is we have to except reality things happen. And it's always happen suddenly like lightning comes down,what shall we do .We just live life goes on like that even anything happen,people like hope and people like to trust hope we don't like to think some bad image , even one of our friend told by doctor her illness doctor said there is hope and we try to trust so.
Maybe we avoidable to see reality what's happen and it's might be unavoidable things,because we wish to hope things gonna be alright then we like to believe hope until we know which things happen unavoidable reality.

Today I couldn't stop tears during when I was working, one of our friend told me she is cancer yesterday doctor told her so, but also doctor told her there is hope and she trust so.

The life already we have is itself it is miracle I think so always....

An old novel

Few month ago my son asked me ," Do you have any book for me? I want read something." Then I recommended an old novel " The Last Leaf " by O. Henry when I was in primary school which I loved one an old story it was.I was read it again few years ago, I felt so much human love and so heartful warm in it,I remind something sweet memory in my heart which I was liked feel heartful human love in the novel when I was child.And then later I asked my son " Did you read it ?"He told me he likes it. There are story something in that old story which we might forgot warm human love is in that old novel.
The things which is very important but we might forgot what is important in our life between people, that novel reminded in my heart.

Now in these day's life we are able to feel of course from good movies there is a justice or kindness, but in that an American old novel reflection that old time how people lived with human love.What we can feel from literature is stay inside a heart more deeper than any good movies which feel from visions,I think so.

When I was child I found that novel " The Last Leaf " in the primary school library ,I liked looking around library when I was child maybe because there were many kind of human's heart or human love was inside literature and I could feel it in the library and I liked to find it in the school library.

And the place for me which was one space could able to meet many authors and their hearts were in there.

The Ark

A few days ago I watched a comedy movie on DVD with my daughter, it was so fun we laughed too much . The story was just simple comedy movie a man start to build Noah's ark with his family. And then yesterday I read a magazine there was a title " The CHAOTIC BIRTH of Planets" . I thought the earth might be like a Noah's ark floating in space. We can see how earth is perfect planet and why we are living on there , always I feel so much mystery of that when we think four billion years history then we are here living with technological life and now human finding a away how to live with this climate change maybe it 'll be so.

One day I asked my son " How do you think about this news about this global warming problem might be going to melt away Greenland do you think is it possible to stop it by human ?" He answered quick " No, I don't think so it's impossible to stop it , but mother do not worry it right now we don't know what's going on after 50years you can imagine life about 50 years ago , there was not much technologies like now we didn't know life with TV who people lived 50years ago no one imaged that people will live life with internet or simple cell phone or hybrid car. you can see how we live life now compared life 50 years ago, human will find something with new technologies about how to live with or might get solution." His answer was just trusting only that.For his age about 23 years old young people about cell phone is not much special technologies or internet too, because there was already and everyone has it , things are just ordinary tools for them.To studied to make a robot with programming or to studied of architecture design used CAD at school ,such things are as usually for him.

Young generation will see more different visions on their eyes . It's same as when I was young I was looked my mother's generation was looks old she was born before second world war. My sons age live with digital things and think about environment is just as usually things.He always respect people who are working to try to plant for environment. Maybe there are people who are try green or think new architecture with clean energy try to find a way which is good for environment that why he trust human's future will going to get well by human's ideas, I thought so.

He is thinking more bright and of course we need to try little thing to do something good for environment in daily life as we can that will change things which small things to do is important he told me so.

To leave one of a life space

The time is will never wait and will never stop, we are just stare it and standing on to see it sometimes. One old woman who worked at one restaurant for forty years almost half of her life, she was spend her life in the kitchen at restaurant . But one year ago her illness began , she start to forget a way to reach the place where she works ,sometimes she was standing front of the shopping center to looking for entrance, or even she could enter there she was asking to people where is that restaurant .Co-worker was couldn't believe it.

Because she used come to work herself by bicycle everyday.But in beginning she could work as usually in the kitchen as she used to work for long time slice the vegetable polite and she was expert for deep fry cooking . Senile dementia Alzheimer doctor told her family , co-worker went pick her up at home every morning and send her to her home after work because she was already couldn't remind how to reach the place. Doctor told her family if she can continue to do her work better for illness to hinder progress. In only one year she changed very quick.

Few month ago she start to forget that she had finish lunch two minute ago and she couldn't remind what she had .But about her job was she could do as she can . Of course it's tough to work for her age even short time but co-worker believed better to work as she can rather than sitting at home. Her active will help to fight her illness, because even she couldn't remind things just few minute ago but she can still remember how to slice vegetable better than other workers and she cook deep fry better than others, that she spend most of her life in the kitchen as well. Maybe even she move to care house after leave her work place, anyone will never image what she can do, they will be see just she is an one of person senile dementia Alzheimer patient nothing she can do they will think so because she can't remember care house's worker's face and their name cause of new place, things new things are difficult to be memory. And also her family will never know how many menu she has cooked for customers in that restaurant through the more than forty years. On their eyes be able to see she is only a just one old woman now who is repeating a same question all the time or asking something funny question and give problem at night . But at her work place she was expert for cooking at that restaurant and very special person she was .There is still things to she can do .But time has come to leave her work place where she spend most of her life.

Tomorrow will be her last day to spend time at her kitchen and then she will never cook again as she used to do it everyday .

Season

In daily we just spend just going on quick everyday , sometimes when I found flower blooming it's makes me feel season is going to change ,and it make me stop to front of flower.Looks like flower says in silent " we are here " silent beauty I might miss to find it .And then I always tell to flower " you are so beautiful "feel thanks to flower.

Flower makes my heart so soft maybe cause they looks like smiling to me..

Math in the light

When I see the light I feel always perfect math in the light, math in the nature I thought so.If I see different vision of light cause of my eyes, light is not much bright like that normally.it's looks boring world it is. Because there is much more beautiful sun light and street light around at night are shinning more beautiful.
In day time I see shinning everywhere too much. Is there anyone see same eyes? I was wonder and I didn't know how people see the world. I don't know how to explain shape I see around the light appearing.
It's only I can say ,light is so beautiful.

An old shrine

There is an old shrine near by where I was born.I used visit with my family when I was child every new year at midnight. It was just like one of culture we used to do.I like that shrine since I was child , about six hundred years old trees are makes the place holly and silent , I like to feel it. This shrine has history since 13century and then rebuild in 15century, of course it's made by wood. People around there lived with this shrine and my family also with in long history. In this new year I went there with my daughter ,there was a lot of snow but people in that town walking to the shrine at midnight in the snow, I used to do so when I was child,we stop the car beside the river and we walked the bridge road to enter the shrine looking up snow falling. It was amazing scene and beautiful to see falling snow at midnight ,I felt I was used see same scene since I was child.There was crowd in the shrine ,people are coming from everywhere to spend new year time with someone in the snow, and through the new year more than three hundred thousand people visit there every new year . In usually this shrine is just stay in silent side by the river. It's something so funny why I like that place and feel holly air in that place, maybe in my blood ? And my sons also they are going to enjoy to visit the shrine with their friends in new year .Maybe that's my parents told us kind of a culture through our old history.But I'm sure the people who was visited the shrine in new year they can say no religion ,just turn to ordinary life in next day and me too. Faith in living as culture with old history... I think so.Even we live in our life with any new technology human will never throw away old culture which lived with in long history in our life and I feel to proud it.

In daily life

People are changing to new life style little by little, because what we can do for something for our environment in daily life. We are just watching problem melt ice on Evilest on TV in the living room in morning on news program after that we have to go to work or go to school everyday just spend daily life. So people are trying as we can do little things to do things good challenge to stop global warming in our daily life.This week I have seen " Eco Week " program on TV every morning in the news, it was so wonderful, I like it.
People's consciousness are already changing to new way , it's really fantastic . We can find many things people are how trying products to change in to new Eco style everywhere. That is everyone's hope to save the earth ." Bright Eco "!! tender to earth, people are like to cooperate to this crying earth...and seems it's not for our self people are hearing cry from earth .

Fantastic gate

Children are so fantastic,today I saw on TV there is a baseball stadium organised "Eco plan " one of them is children gather those balloon around after game and then they get baseball cards it's call " Fun with Eco " and I surprised they know what is purpose for it . Children responded a journalist 's question " what for it do you do ?" they understand exactly " Because of global warming ..." he responded looks shy.Journalist said " you are grown up person " kids around ten years old boy " No, I'm still kid" with smile he said.It was so sweet one scene and cute! Children are like to do goodness so honest."Fun with Eco " is new words on TV this day I found. And new Shibuya subway station going to open soon also it's wonderful design as Eco system.


I thought these kind of architecture style might be make new culture in our human history, and I hope so.


We need more introducing through the media that people are how they try in many way to thinking for environment, that will bring " Bright Eco " .. this words also one of new word I found on TV, I like it too.
Problem we have it on this earth is so huge , so it's not easy to solve in short time, that's why we need small step to everyone .If we see long term children will going to work for next generation and these matter should understand to everybody .It's already not only for experts or specialists, way of solution is for civilian responsible to next future .

Some years ago I have seen one program on TV ,it was human is try to make biological challenge on Mars to make environment for human to live on Mars, when I saw it looks like dream.But now if human can not save this green planet already we have ,how we can make other planet to make green planet by human technology ,I can not understand .I think better to try to challenge plant on desert or try to stop spreading desert that the first than plant on Mars,if scientist already have technology to plant Mars they can do change desert to green.
Human is very small , and we don't have any power to stop melt ice on Antarctica right now .

But children are trust their action will save the earth.

Light

The light if there is colors I see it around white car light, ray of light colors spokewise around white light ,my son told me it's wrong eyes car light should be white. Is it so ? It's only white light is a visible ray,Is that spectrum I see ?I don't understand what I see , and if car is far from me that's car light makes bigger sphere with ray of light colors than near, so sometimes I surprise what is it so big one I see but I'm sure it's ray of light because I can see it so clear with many colors spokewise, sometimes I enjoy to see it. I thought everybody seeing same light like that. So when I driving at night always I was wonder what is around car light appearing colors ray of light spokewise looks like circle,like a sphere and spokewise ray of light toward to in my eyes too dazzling and sharp it is .Sometimes I see it beautiful but sometimes I feel it so strange, I say what's it round one. I don't know what I see always with light. But maybe glass of car light making prism or my eyes itself make prism, if car light should be white.And also bicycle light appearing same way colors around it.

Natural light is really beautiful sun ray reflection I see colors ray around white,and it's so brilliant.

Reflection on the earth

Sometimes I see sunbeam reflection everywhere,when it's sunny day much more bright. Reflection on the water everywhere, reflection on the car, reflection on leaves and reflection on flower, and those sunbeam reflection has colors with it red,yellow, and green like small rainbow everywhere be able to see them,always I feel these makes so much dazzling for my eyes. But is there anyone knows this earth is so much beautiful sun light reflective around us . People when could found rainbow in the sky only that time maybe can think about sunbeam reflection on the earth, that's easy to understand how sun light is reflection on water on the earth ray of light make shape like that. But really there is more sunbeam reflection everywhere,so when I see them I feel this earth is so beautiful brilliant planet where we live...

Music

This afternoon I took drive to botanic gardens with my daughter. I played music in the car so loud, it's seems to be undulation in my brain and inside body ,It's makes me refresh! Sound is so mystery might be undulation water in body. Yet there is no scientific proof but most of human body is made by kind of water, if violin's sounds make sands shape by sounds undulation might be happen to human too. Sounds of guitar stroke and Bon Jovi's voice key did undulation to my brain maybe I thought so. I remind when I was teenage I was listen Kieth Jarret's album "Koln Concert "every day maybe more than ten thousand times I had listen it so loud, I liked that sound of piano reverberation to inside my brain.Sound of piano is most I like one.

Change

I feel many times I see or I hear words about " Eco " through the CM when I turn on the TV. If I count them in a hour maybe almost all CM is approaching about thinking of environment and also it's give us attention to our environment. That's big change of daily life I think so."My bag present !! Eco bag with this product !!" it's mean better than plastic bag! Car company always commercial " a fuel economy car" , construction company is " A energy saving house, let's build it for tender to environment" etc.These commercial message going to change our consciousness. Most impact message from CM was " To change to I do from I know " visualize on screen iceberg breaking, and then a small kid found light in the room then his hand touch a swicth off it."Let's try to reduce CO2 " I think I have seen same scene for a year maybe , I really thought so I have to change to I do something little not only I know. When we drive also we find many words sticker on the car " Non idling car " that why I don't do idling . Sometime I surprise everywhere I can see some kind of message for environment.

"Tender between human and earth " people like these sentence.I believe world will change by human to new way. There is a new primary school rebuild in my city how I surprised it's call "Eco School" !!,it's very wonderful and fantastic !! That public primary school is not for special students, rebuild because three around primary school had reduced students, so those got unity. The new school is organised to students can learn environment through the school life.There is not special lesson but their school environment itself is space to learn environment. They can learn through the solar system and wind power showing corridor how many KW getting now on time. And the other garden is learn for ecology. I think about my son's age they are thinking about environment as usually, so things will change !!

Miracle color on the earth

Why flower has so many variation of colors? I think what we can find most variation of colors in nature flower showing us. I always surprise how so beautiful colors find in flower around on this earth. Of course we find beautiful colors in sunset or sunrise we see miracle color of light so people like to see it and feel thanks to nature's beautiful. But it's enable to see most color variation in nature is only flower,so tender and I see in it small life there. And it is also miracle of light ? !!